Archives for May 2009

May 20

I have to admit…

I love the Father. I love the Comforter. But the Disciplinarian part…..well that can be rough!

Did you read the Proverbs 31 devotion today? If you are visiting my blog today after reading today’s devo, well then welcome! I’m glad you are here and I hope you’ll share some insight of your own.

Last night I had a speaking engagement in my hometown. That doesn’t happen very often. It was a large audience (which made me nervous) , many of my friends were there (which made me nervous), my P31 co-workers were there (also made me nervous), and my 7 year old daughter was joining me on stage to tell the opening story (now that made her nervous!). I had an upset tummy all day long. I just didn’t know if I could do it. I was worried about what people would think. What if they didn’t like me?

Honestly, I came to terms with that early on. Why? Because it didn’t matter if anyone liked me or not. My Father and Comforter reminded me that I would be fine. I would be provided for. My Disciplinarian reminded me that I was asked to deliver a message from Him. My discomfort was unimportant compared to the message He was asking me to give. I needed to study. I needed to prepare. I needed to pray. I needed to remain focused. And I needed to follow through. So I did.

I have to admit, I love God when He’s giving me comfort and fatherly love. And you know what? I also love Him when He’s giving me discipline. I might not like it, but I’m thankful for it. Discipline is not my strength. I’m weak. But when I’m disciplined and do like I know I’m supposed to the rewards are way better than I could’ve planned.

A woman came up to me after the event tonight. She carried a book with her. She asked, “Will you sign this book for me?” I replied, “Oh, I’m not the author of that book.” She said, “Yes, I know. I just want to remember you and who spoke the message on the night my life was changed.” I am still shaking my head. I don’t get it. How could I have been involved something lifechanging?

The truth is I’m not. I have nothing to do with life change. That’s all God. He disciplined me. And I did what I was asked to do.

What is God to you these days? Your Father? Your Comforter? Your Disciplinarian?

Do Share. I can’t wait to read your comments!

Much Love,

May 18

Watching Survivor

I love Survivor. I’ve watched it since the beginning. I love it. And tonight is the finale. And later this week American Idol ends. It makes me sad because these are shows my family watches together. It makes me happy because I know it means Summer is just around the corner. I look forward to spending more time with my family outside.

That’s all I have to say right now.

JT won Survivor and I am glad.

Sweet Dreams,

May 14

I Love My Co Workers

Yes I do. But to call them “co-workers” sounds so stale and generic. And they are everything but.

This month has been my busiest week to date at Proverbs 31 Ministries. I had 3 speaking events….as a speaker at my level, that’s a lot. On Monday we received over 400 prayer requests to Proverbs…that’s one of my jobs…Prayer coordinator. We usually receive like 15. I spent the night with my mom on Sunday night. My mom’s birthday is Wed, May 13th, so me and the kids went to visit a day early since we can’t go on her real birthday. We stayed twice as long as we planned. But I wouldn’t have it any other way. We had a great time and so did Mom. Then today, Wednesday, it’s my mom’s real birthday, I had to work, Hayley Grace had dance, and Dylan had a baseball game. And American Idol was on :) Go Kris! But I do like Adam too!

I’ve also had tons of laundry. I should be cooking. I’m helping with homework. I’ve had to chauffeur my family from place to place. I know this is common among women. I’m not really that different. But I have felt overwhelmed. I want to do more than I’ve been doing. And I feel guilty for not being able to do more.

Well, today, my co-workers, lended me hand. They had work to do too. But they put it aside and helped me. I am humbled and amazed. Thank you my friends for devoting your time to helping others, and in a way helping God. You have made a big difference in the lives of others. Thank You!

There is so much more that I could say, but I know they would want God to get all the glory. So let’s give it up to Him. Thank you Lord for all you do in our lives together and our lives individually.

Love You! Need You!