The past few days have flown by. They’ve held a whirlwind of emotions and my brain is just too tired to write much.
First, I’ll share a little joy. I’ve lost 7 pounds. Still a long way to go, but I’m overjoyed. Not just for the number, but because I feel good. My life circumstances really really stink right now, but I’ve been faithful to healthy eating and exercising and it’s starting to pay off in a very short time. Not only have I lost 7 pounds, but my blood pressure is normal again at 117 over 74. It hasn’t been in the normal range for months now. Big changes can make a quick difference! That motivates me to keep it up.
So, are any of you doing the New Thru 30 challenge with me? If so, how’s it going? Miraculously, I’m keeping up. Today’s reading was from Mark, chapters 1-11. It was good and I marked many passages to write about on my blog, but I’m exhausted so I’m going to copy and paste what was on my pastor’s blog about it today:
I read today’s passage in the New Living Translation and saw something pretty cool:
John announced: “Someone is coming soon who is greater than I am—
so much greater that I’m not even worthy to stoop down like a slave and untie the straps of his sandals.”
Jesus said that John was great in Matthew 11:11. Specifically, that he was the greatest man ever born of a woman.
But John knew that Jesus was so much greater.
And that’s what made John great.
Jesus is so much greater than any trial you’re facing today.
He’s so much greater than the pleasure of any sin you’re considering.
He’s so much greater than any other ambition you could pursue.
To truly be great, never forget that He is so much greater.
Pastor Steven Furtick, Elevation Church
We had some hard decisions to make concerning Mom’s care. We made a big one today. You can read about it on her CaringBridge site, or I’ll just copy and paste it here:
Dear Friends and Family,
Hope you are doing well today. Your notes and calls have been appreciated. Kenny and Denise Hammond came by for a visit today and it really cheered us all up. Mom said when they left, “They are so uplifting.” Buddy and Mom both thoroughly enjoyed them visiting for a short time. And I appreciated them taking Hayley Grace home for me! Otherwise she would have had to get up at 4:30 am tomorrow to go home and get ready for school.
Tricia and Becca leave tomorrow morning early. I’m taking them to the airport around 5:00 am. It has been wonderful having them here. They both have shed tears over leaving.
Yesterday we had a family meeting with Mom. We all decided that bringing in Hospice was the best decision for Mom and our family. Although we know in our hearts this is the best decision, it was still hard to make. Just admitting that Mom’s life was at the stage to need Hospice was hard. Mom kept saying that she felt like she was quitting and giving up. We jumped to her defense quickly. We reminded her that when she was diagnosed, the doctor said she would probably live maybe a year with treatment, 6 months with no treatment. That was a year and 1/2 ago. I also told Mom that she wasn’t giving up. She didn’t quit. The chemo quit. It quit working. If it was still working, she’d be continuing it. As most of you know, Becky Nunn is no quitter.
When the Hospice nurse came over tonight, our decision was confirmed. What a blessing it was to have granted all we needed. Burdens were lifted, responsibilities were shifted. Her name is Janet and we consider her to be a Godsend. This time tomorrow, Mom will have more pain relief, a wheelchair, and a shower bench. There will also be a nurse coming out 3 times a week to bathe her and take care of her personal needs. That’s in addition to Janet coming out here a few times a week. We can call 24/7 for anything at all. No more doctor visits, they come here.
One of the hardest things for me is thinking that my Mom may only be in her bedroom for the rest of her life. I’m praying she will be pain free enough to enjoy and afternoon outside one day soon. It makes me sad we can’t go out to eat at a restaurant or she won’t be coming over to my house ever again. Never ever did I know how hard this would be. I guess that all sounds pretty selfish on my part. But I love this woman so much. I’m sorry that I often pour out my own heart when I write here. I hope I don’t bring you down by writing all this.
I just left Mom’s room. I’m in the den now, but I can still hear her moaning in pain. Praying she will drift off to sleep very soon.
God Bless each one of you. Keep loving those around you and thank God for the blessings in your life. I know I am.
I’m still in Rock Hill at my mom’s tonight, but I’ll be going home tomorrow after I take my sister to the airport. Hoping to have a few normal days at home and work before I return later in the week.
I’m going to bed now to dream something beautiful.