You may not know, but my mother, Becky Nunn, was diagnosed with lung cancer in October, 2008. At the time of her diagnosis, the doctor said without treatment, she might live 6 months. With treatment, maybe a year. It’s been quite a difficult journey: chemo, surgeries, loss of hair, growth of hair, happy times, sad times, very difficult times, and overall a time that no one could ever prepare for. I’ve known people who have travelled this journey, but never did I imagine how difficult it was.
I started a CaringBridge site for my mom. It’s a place where her friends, family, and even fans (many of you) keep up with her health and condition. Today, I decided to share here on my blog, my latest post on CaringBridge. Here it is.
Hey there. How’s everyone doing today? Hopefully wherever you are you are enjoying your day. I know I am. Although it’s been very quiet today, it’s been nice. I’m spending the day and night with Mom. Very thankful to be here.
Mom had a great visit with her friend Margaret last Saturday. Margaret brought pictures of some of their fun times together and also brought dinner. Mom and Bud both enjoyed her visit. It was great to see her, it had been way too long! Tomorrow Ruth and Opal are coming. She’s looking forward to that too. Her friends are cherished treasures.
She’s been very quiet today. I noticed last time I was here she wasn’t talking as much. She is content, just quiet. She has dozed on and off all day.
It’s a bittersweet thing to watch your Mom in this situation. Some of you know what I’m talking about. There’s a deep sadness watching someone’s life decline. Sometimes there is peace with watching this process. And sometimes there is profound sadness. I find myself looking back over our lifetime of memories together a lot when I’m sitting with her. I think of my favorite meals she’s made me. I think of trips we’ve taken. Silly times. Happy times. Hard times. Life times. And how on the one hand I’m not ready for those to end. But then again, I know there is a better life awaiting her ahead. People tell me the phase of “letting go” will come when it’s time. It’s not time yet, thankfully! Can’t you tell I’ve been in deep thought?Reflective. (It doesn’t help that Celine is singing a slow song about love and family on Oprah right now as I write this!) Needless to say, the time spent together is priceless. I’ve said it before, but I’ll say it again, “Love those around you with an active love. Enjoy your time together and don’t pass up an opportunity to say ‘I love you.'”
Well, Mom just perked up. “Ellen” just came on and it’s making her laugh I love that sound!
God Bless You!
Thanks for allowing me to share a portion of my journey with you. Have a beautiful day