Sep 13

I Can’t Be Sick,don’t have the time.

Saturday night held an adventure I had been waiting on for months. In fact I wrote about it in my last post. My son invited me to go with him to “Mary Poppins”, the musical.  And let me tell you, it did not disappoint! It was amazing.

During the show, my throat started hurting. It got worse over the course of the evening and when I got home I discovered I was running a fever.  Hoping it was just a fluke, I took some ibuprofen and went to bed.  When I woke up the next morning, I felt even worse.

“I can’t be sick, don’t have the time!”  I must have said this 10 times, but the sickness did not listen.  Sunday, I was on the couch all day. Not only did I feel cruddy physically, but I also felt down mentally.  Have you ever noticed that when you don’t feel well, everything is magnified?  I missed my mom and cried about that.  My office friends were going to the lake for a getaway (without me because I’m sick) and I cried about that.  My fever kept going up and I cried about that. Then I started thinking about all the things I’m supposed to do this week, so I cried about that too.  At the end of my cryfest, I had convinced myself that I am really not very good at anything and should just call it quits in various aspects of my life. I spiraled down down down.   I’m not good enough to be a Bible study leader. I need to quit working on my silly Top Ten lists, who needs them anyway? Why am I pursuing speaking again? What message can I deliver? I’m not even great at being a wife, mom, keeper of my home…do I really think I can do anything else?  I already work close to full time in an office and seriously I can’t do anything else.  And I especially don’t have time to be sick!!!! Oooh, our enemy is good at kicking a girl when she’s already down.

Can you relate?

Seeing things more clearly today after getting some much needed rest, I am reminded that my thoughts from yesterday aren’t the truth. They were based on the way I was feeling at the time.

Ephesians 2:10, “For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus so we can do good things he planned for us long ago.” Yep, I’m God’s masterpiece.  I believe that qualifies me for great things. And it’s not based on feelings, it’s the Truth.  That’s what I have to hang on to, especially when I’m sick and feeling sorry for myself.

Today, I’m still sick. Fever is still going up. And I really don’t have time for this, I have too much to do. (Isn’t that true of most of us?)  I can’t do anything about it, but I can do something about my thoughts during my sickness.  And today I’ve decided to dwell on the fact that I am God’s masterpiece. God’s sick masterpiece, but nevertheless, His masterpiece.  And all those other things I was worried about, I trust Him to take care of those too.

Just thought I’d share a few thoughts from the trenches.

Love and Blessings,

Melissa

Comments

  1. Oh, yes! Oh, yes! I can relate!!! Fortunately I am not sick right now but I have all of your other symptoms. I am so glad that Mary Poppins was a hit for you and your son!

    My husband had some medical tests run last week and our dr. friend called to tell him the results at noon today. My husband told our dr. friend that we had eaten pizza for 20 out of the last 30 days so that is why his cholesterol was high. Confirmation!!! After laughing (I think he exaggerated some) I told him that there was no worry about dr. friend wanting to take me away from him. Obviously this woman is a slacker!!! :)

    I cooked a big meal with apple cobbler for dessert! It is going to take awhile to recoup my reputation!

    You should stop by for a visit on my blogs. I hope you will smile!!!

    Love you, Melissa! I think you are totally amazing! I want to be like you when I grow up!

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  2. Oh Melissa I hope you feel better soon! Sometimes I wonder if our getting sick is God’s way of slowing us down to allow us to rest. There are many times I know that is the only way I will slow down. You are an amazing, God-filled woman. Thank you for allowing Him to minister to so many women through you. I am praying for you.

    By the way, how ’bout those Gamecocks! Watched part of the game Saturday while on a trip with my husband.

    Mary

  3. I think that was a wonderful blog. A reason that I always check your blog is because you are real, a real person following Christ, stumbling and then getting back up again. I think there is a song…”we lose our way, we get back up again, it’s never too late, to get back up again”. Thank you for what you do because I have felt the same way myself at times. I hope you feel better soon.

  4. Hey precious melissa.. I totally know how Satan can do that.. praise the lord for your transparent sharing. and I can tell you God is using you. You were one of the most precious people I have ever met.. your smile just glows the glory of the Lord. I am praying for you as you rest and recover. Psalms 63!
    love ya
    Jenn

  5. I was feeling down and something (God) drew me to your blog today. Even though you are sick (and I pray that you feel better soon), you have still managed to touch my life today with your encouraging words. I too was spiraling down and listening to the enemy. But thanks to your words, I have a new truth that I will be saying all day. Thank you for this!

  6. I need your top ten lists, hope you feel better soon xxx

  7. Oh Melissa, Satan was really on the attack wasn’t he. He is so very evil. You are one of God’s amazing girls that writes from the heart, and I love, love, love your writings, what you have to say about God, your encouragements, inspirations, and keep those ten top lists coming! I’m glad you kicked Satan to the curb, and didn’t listen to his lies. I pray you are feeling better real soon.

    Sweet Blessings.

  8. I hope that you are feeling better now! Have a wonderful day!
    Cheri

  9. You are beautiful and talentd and I am blessed to be your friend. Praying you feel better. mel