Archives for October 2010

Oct 4

What Exactly Does Knowing God Do?

Pain.  “Knowing the Lord and His comfort does not take away the ache; instead, it supports you in the middle of the ache.”  Dr. Larry Crabb  (p. 5 Season of Grief)

Yes! This is so true. Just today I told my friend Denise that I kept telling myself how blessed I was to have had 43 years with a wonderful mom, BUT that didn’t take away the pain I felt in losing her.

I keep trying to over justify my pain and sadness. I can try to combat my overwhelming grief with telling myself how lucky I was to even have had a mom that was so caring, loving, and there for me. I know I was blessed. And I’m so grateful. But that doesn’t ease the pain.

That’s why I relate to Dr. Larry Crabb’s statement. Knowing God has not taken away one bit of my pain in losing Mom. But it has helped me sleep at night.

Knowing God has given me comfort.  Peace.  Contentment. Hope.

In John 16:33, Jesus tells us that “In this world you will have trouble..”   And we do….have trouble. It should be no surprise. But then He goes on to say, “Take heart! I have overcome the world.”  Overcome = defeat, conquer, beat, win against.  So, I can find support in the middle of my ache. Right?  Right! Not only support. But I can trust that my Jesus has conquered any trouble, pain, or fear that I am facing. I then can release it and trust Him. I may still ache, but I can find peace. And I have.

Are you in pain? Do you struggle with the imperfections of this world? Are you feeling hopeless?

What exactly does knowing God do for you?

Melissa
Oct 3

Orange Tic Tac Worthy

Thank you so much for the sweet comments that have been left on my blog and emailed to me recently.  This week, you blessed me greatly. So many of the comments were from people who are also hurting from losing a loved one or caring for someone they love who is not doing well. There’s fear and sadness, both of these I can relate to. I’ve prayed for everyone who left me a comment. I asked God to bless and take care of you and I thanked Him for you in my life.

As you may know if you’ve read my blog lately, I’m a little down. My psoriasis is worse than ever and spreading. (I am seeing a doctor this week, so grateful for that). I received so many suggestions from people who deal with this also. Thank you for the great resources, remedies, and sharing what has worked and not worked for you.   My main source of the blues, however, is from missing my sweet mama. I’m not sure why, but this past week has been excruciating. I’ve cried so much. I keep hearing her voice in my head, but I really want to hear her voice in my ears. I just need her so badly and my heart aches.  I know it’s all normal and necessary. As I go through my daily routine, which is jammed packed with duties and responsibilities, I want to just crash and cry. On the outside I look like a thriving mother of 4 with a wonderful job, wonderful husband, and wonderful home. All true. But the inside is filled with sadness that seems to be trapped, unable to come out because I have too much to do. Does someone get that? Then when I do get the opportunity to cry, someone needs me for something, so I have to quit crying, suck it up, and move on.

Great story, then I’ll close. I was in the car ALONE yesterday on my way to pick up Dylan from a  Bar Mitzvah. I took this opportunity to cry. I couldn’t help it, the tears just flowed. As I was pulling up to the temple to get Dylan, I wiped my eyes. He got in the car and asked, “Mom, what’s wrong?”  So I told him. “I miss my mom really bad.”  Dylan threw his arms around me and held me for about 30 seconds, which is a long time for a 13 yr old boy to hug his mama!  We didn’t discuss it any more, but later in the day I went to his Facebook wall. He had changed his status. This is what it said:

Sometimes i wish i never had my umbelical cord cut so i could drag my mama everywhere with me…..

Is that just the sweetest thing ever???  Oh my gosh. Tears again! That touched my heart so deeply that when I was at Wal-Mart later in the day, I bought my sweet boy some orange tic tacs, his favorite.  The tic tacs weren’t even in the budget, but I figured it was worth the 99 cents. (sorry Jeff for not sticking to the budget, I know you’ll understand! lol)  That status is priceless to me. It was so orange tic tac worthy!

Has anyone done something for you that was orange tic tac worthy lately?  Don’t let the moment pass you by, thank God for them right now.

You are orange tic tac worthy too.  In case you forgot, review this Top 10 List right now.

Love and Blessings!


Melissa