She called me last week. Defeated. Annoyed. Frustrated. “I can’t do this. I don’t think I can. I’m a screw up. Please don’t be disappointed in me. Are you mad at me?”
He came to me last night. Rejected. Broken hearted. “She broke up with me. I really liked her too. I feel sad. Why did this happen? What did I do wrong?”
She called me from the waiting room this morning. Alone. Nervous. “I’m scared. What if they find something they can’t fix? What if something bad is wrong? Or what if they don’t find anything and we never know what’s causing all this?”
He came in from football practice. Down. Angry. Deflated. “They pulled me off of defense. I was the captain. What if I don’t get playing time? This is my life. I’ve worked hard and they don’t notice what a difference I’m making. What if I never get my chance?”
I crawled in bed, the end of a long long week. Worried. Insecure. Invisible. Doubtful. “How can I handle all this? My heart is breaking for the things I cannot fix. I feel forgotten. I try to take care of everybody in my life…not doing such a good job at it though. I’m letting people down. I don’t feel validated, in fact what I do goes unnoticed. I’m not doing real good in any one area of life. Maybe just maybe my life isn’t going to get any better, then what? He told me I was not normal. Could that be true?”
Does any of this sound familiar to you? I’m guessing, YES IT DOES! Why? Because these are all real life examples of people filled with doubt and insecurity…both of which ARE NOT FROM GOD. And if it’s not from God, then we cannot trust it.
How hard to understand that we can’t trust our own thoughts. After all, don’t we know ourselves better than anyone else? Uh, kind of, but guess what? Your enemy knows you pretty well too. He’s familiarized himself with your doubts and weaknesses and so that’s where he attacks.
This has to stop. It’s time we stop believing the lies that we aren’t good enough, smart enough, or valuable enough because we are.
God’s Word says:
“Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name, you are mine.” ~Isaiah 43:1
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.” ~Proverbs 3:5-6
“He who goes out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with him.” ~Psalm 126:6
“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” ~Joshua 1:9
“Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today…The Lord will fight for you; you need only be still.” ~Exodus 14:13-14
Here’s the kicker for me…I KNOW ALL THIS! I totally know better. So, why is it so easy for me to get distracted and allow those doubts to take over? Oh, I get so mad at myself sometimes! But, because I do know the Truth, I am able to come back to it. Hopefully as I seek God’s Word daily, I will be quicker to remember what He says and not what my own thoughts dictate. My thoughts are often not in line with God’s Word. Only His Word can be fully trusted. I need that reminder everyday, many times a day.
I’m fortunate in the fact that words, specifically written words, are my #1 love language. If you want to love me in my love language, write me a letter. It blesses me more than anything else. I hold on to those special letters people have written me. They are in my Bible, on my wall, at my desk, in keepsake folders. I feel wrapped up, loved and safe when someone has written down something meaningful or encouraging to me. Maybe that’s why I love Facebook, Twitter, and blogging so much. It’s all words! And maybe that’s why my Bible is my most prized possession. God’s Words, His Love Letter to me is everything. I don’t know what I’d do without it. And that’s where I am able to put out the doubt fire in my heart. “Doubt and hope cannot live in our hearts at the same time.” (Confident Heart) So, when doubt creeps in, God’s Word pushes it out.
I’m unfortunate in the fact that words are my #1 love language. If you withhold them from me, I fill in the blanks….and it’s usually not good. You can use them in a negative way and you can guarantee to kill me. My heart is ruined by negative words. I am down and defeated more than anything else could do. Words can build me up or words can tear me down. I crumble and cower under defeating words. So easy. So profound. I have to guard my heart with the Word of God or I am ruined. I need God’s Word to keep me in line…to keep me grounded…to keep me believing the Truth. To keep me confident.
Our next Online Bible Study begins September 18th. (yes the 18th..I know I keep messing that up…it’s the 18th!) I invite you to join me and so many other wonderful ladies as we get together to learn, grow, study, encourage, and pray our way through A Confident Heart, by Renee Swope.
Y’all have a beautiful day! And oh, yea, I almost forgot…MIRANDA WHITE. You won a conference call series. Send me your information: Melissa@MelissaTaylor.org.
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