Dec 20

Just For Me

It’s happened twice in one week. I read a passage and automatically thought of someone in my life who I wanted to forward it to because they needed it. Then after prayer, reflection, and real life happenings, I realized they were written just for me.

One is Psalm 20. Maybe you saw my prayer on Facebook or Twitter. I was flipping through the pages of my Bible searching for a Word to pray over my friends. I ended up at Psalm 20, so I posted a short prayer. Later in the day something happened that rocked my world. It involved one of my children…something I couldn’t change. I reflected on other battles raging my way. There are a few. Voids in my life. Deep hurts. Grieving. Sadness. Confusion. Mental exhaustion. Disappointment. You get it. I realized that although Psalm 20 was great to pray for others, God was really sending it to me. The thought came over me so strong that I have chosen it as my 2012 Life Chapter. Usually I have a verse, but this upcoming year, I’ve selected a chapter. I’m going to memorize it. I feel like it’s just for me.

Psalm 20

1 May the LORD answer you when you are in distress;
may the name of the God of Jacob protect you.
2 May he send you help from the sanctuary
and grant you support from Zion.
3 May he remember all your sacrifices
and accept your burnt offerings.
4 May he give you the desire of your heart
and make all your plans succeed.
5 May we shout for joy over your victory
and lift up our banners in the name of our God.

May the LORD grant all your requests.

6 Now this I know:
The LORD gives victory to his anointed.
He answers him from his heavenly sanctuary
with the victorious power of his right hand.
7 Some trust in chariots and some in horses,
but we trust in the name of the LORD our God.
8 They are brought to their knees and fall,
but we rise up and stand firm.
9 LORD, give victory to the king!
Answer us when we call!

 

Don’t you just love that! We trust in the name of the LORD our God.

This wasn’t the only passage just for me. The other appeared on the blog of one of my favorite people in the world. My good friend, Nicki Koziarz.  Last week she wrote a post titled “Fresh Vision.”  I read it on a day when I was feeling down, rejected, and not good enough. I saw her twitter post about “Fresh Vision.” So glad I clicked the link. It took me to words that spoke to my heart, gave me hope, and provided new vision in my circumstances which I needed. I needed to see that God knows my heart and believes in me and chooses me. I know all this, but I needed the reminder.

I pray you are blessed by Nicki’s words. From the blog of my beautiful amazing friend, Nicki. I know I was. It felt like they were just for me.

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Fresh Vision.

The second pick.

That’s how I feel some days.

The fear of never being good enough often hinders me. The realization of being in others shadows paralyzes me. I spend hours in my mind wandering around the circle of insignificance. My heart tries to stay filled up with God’s Truth, but I find a leaky corner…a place where the  hole of  “unworthy” gets larger each day.

Today, I am a woman desperate for God to breathe fresh vision on my soul.

I don’t want the vision someone else has on their life.

I am weary of the shadows that I continually find myself in. Time is short, and I don’t have time to waste in these endless circles.

So, as I find myself in the place of needing a fresh vision for life today,  I’m comforted by these thoughts…

1. The secret place is the vision space.

There is a place that I know Jesus wants to meet us everyday that isn’t about a tweet, facebook status, or blog post. My vision gets lost when it is  found anywhere else but in the presence of God.

We live in a society that is constantly connected. The more connected I get, the more I find myself feeling disconnected from God.

The secret place is somewhere I need to be present and focused.

Wherever that place is, distractions must leave.

2. The vision space is the planning place.

Proverbs 29:18 says; “Where there is no vision, the people cast off restraint; but happy is he who keeps the law.”

While I’ve heard of people having dreams while sleeping of the vision God has for their life…this isn’t how God speaks to me most of the time.

Obedience is.

The place where I sit still, ask God, read His word, listen to the nudging on my soul…this is where I hear from God.

Our hearts want so badly to believe that God has great plans for us. If we continually fight or disregard the plans, then we will continually fail to walk towards the vision.

While it may be true to this world that Nicki Koziarz is a second pick player, I have to know and believe that God does not see me this way.

I know that in a crowd of 10,000, He sees this woman, desperate for His vision.

He sees us. He knows our hearts. He knows the gifts He’s given us. He believes in us like no one else.

And He chooses you…

God, I need a fresh vision from you today. I need you to breathe on my life like never before. The only thing I ask that you make greater in my life, is your presence. Give those of us desperate for a fresh vision an undeniable encounter with you today…

 

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Don’t you love how when you are looking and have your spiritual eyes open, God provides just what you need? I know it’s not always that easy, but this week, I was extremely blessed by words when I needed them. Since words are my love language (they can build me way up or tear me way down), these 2 passages, one provided by God and one provided by a friend, were exactly what I needed. Just for me.

Love You Ladies. I pray the words today were meant…Just For You.

 

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Melissa

Comments

  1. Loved this, Melissa – – both of them.. I am a woman desperate for God to breathe fresh vision on my soul!! That hit so close to home that it almost scared me! God Bless and Merry Christmas!

  2. Oh how I needed this! It always amazes me how the right words are right there when I need them the most. I shouldn’t be amazed because I know how HE works,,yet it still does. Oh how He loves us! Merry Christmas and God Bless!

  3. Thanks – I so needed this psalm. This year has been so hard with my aunt dying 6 months ago and other stuff.

  4. Thank you and Nicki, Melissa. These words, all of them, blessed my heart tonight, and I thank God for using you and Nicki to edify me and many others. May you be blessed beyond belief and have a peaceful Christmas!

  5. “God, I need a fresh vision from you today. I need you to breathe on my life like never before. The only thing I ask that you make greater in my life, is your presence. Give those of us desperate for a fresh vision an undeniable encounter with you today…”

    LOVE this Melissa! I will be praying this for my own life, as well. :)

  6. I LOVE this Melissa and I am so thankful you shared this. Both of you are beautiful inside and out :). I can’t wait to see what God has in store through the Online Bible Studies this year and M2C!!

    <3 Heather

  7. Just what I needed…just when I needed it. THAT’S God! This is beautiful, this is confirmation, and this is from Him, through you. Thank you for your blog Melissa! Have a beautifully blessed day! <3

  8. Amen. Love both of these!

  9. I really appreciated what you had to share and what you shared from Nicki. I couldn’t help but also relate as my year has also be very difficult, (but I try to keep in perspective that someone else is going through worse than I am). It still does bring you to the question of is God using this for His purpose?
    I couldn’t help but get out a listening cd of a cantata I was in a few years ago called God Speaking. I am sorry not to give credit to the amazing people who created this wonderful piece, but I do not have the music. Of course, the song “God Speaking” was in it (Mandisa has an arrrangement out of it), but then a chorus of the song “Speak to Me” is toward the end. It did speak to me, but not about the “Christmas noise”, just about all the things life has brought for so long now and getting peace from God, and longing to hear His voice. He is there, we just have to be obedient like it was said and keep focusing and trusting Him.
    Thanks for the encouragement.

  10. Wow! Nicki’s 1st paragraph describes my life! And Melissa, yours popped into my inbox just as I had returned from lunch where I had been pleading with God for some specifics in my life. I, too, was blindsided with an issue that added so much more stress in my life and seems to magnify every smaller issue a thousand fold. And here at Christmastime when my heart so wants to give and I have so little resources my soul aches and groans. But, I am reminded that my Father owns EVERYTHING and is in charge of it ALL. I truly need a year of Jubilee.
    Thank you for sharing that particular Psalm with me.

  11. Thanks Melissa for sharing what God showed you in Psalm 20 and also from Nikki. That is my heart’s cry, that He be greater than anything else. It was the right thing at the right time. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you and your family.

  12. Thank you for posting both entries, Melissa! I am a twenty-something continuing through my lesson of patience and hope filled waiting.

    Reading posts such as these inspire and motivate me to keep my perspective on Him. Thank you!

  13. Wendy Adams says:

    Loved this Melissa! Will be praying Psalm 20 for myself as well…this was “for me”. :) Have a blessed Christmas!

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