It’s happened twice in one week. I read a passage and automatically thought of someone in my life who I wanted to forward it to because they needed it. Then after prayer, reflection, and real life happenings, I realized they were written just for me.
One is Psalm 20. Maybe you saw my prayer on Facebook or Twitter. I was flipping through the pages of my Bible searching for a Word to pray over my friends. I ended up at Psalm 20, so I posted a short prayer. Later in the day something happened that rocked my world. It involved one of my children…something I couldn’t change. I reflected on other battles raging my way. There are a few. Voids in my life. Deep hurts. Grieving. Sadness. Confusion. Mental exhaustion. Disappointment. You get it. I realized that although Psalm 20 was great to pray for others, God was really sending it to me. The thought came over me so strong that I have chosen it as my 2012 Life Chapter. Usually I have a verse, but this upcoming year, I’ve selected a chapter. I’m going to memorize it. I feel like it’s just for me.
1 May the LORD answer you when you are in distress;
may the name of the God of Jacob protect you.
2 May he send you help from the sanctuary
and grant you support from Zion.
3 May he remember all your sacrifices
and accept your burnt offerings.
4 May he give you the desire of your heart
and make all your plans succeed.
5 May we shout for joy over your victory
and lift up our banners in the name of our God.
May the LORD grant all your requests.
6 Now this I know:
The LORD gives victory to his anointed.
He answers him from his heavenly sanctuary
with the victorious power of his right hand.
7 Some trust in chariots and some in horses,
but we trust in the name of the LORD our God.
8 They are brought to their knees and fall,
but we rise up and stand firm.
9 LORD, give victory to the king!
Answer us when we call!
Don’t you just love that! We trust in the name of the LORD our God.
This wasn’t the only passage just for me. The other appeared on the blog of one of my favorite people in the world. My good friend, Nicki Koziarz. Last week she wrote a post titled “Fresh Vision.” I read it on a day when I was feeling down, rejected, and not good enough. I saw her twitter post about “Fresh Vision.” So glad I clicked the link. It took me to words that spoke to my heart, gave me hope, and provided new vision in my circumstances which I needed. I needed to see that God knows my heart and believes in me and chooses me. I know all this, but I needed the reminder.
I pray you are blessed by Nicki’s words. From the blog of my beautiful amazing friend, Nicki. I know I was. It felt like they were just for me.
The second pick.
That’s how I feel some days.
The fear of never being good enough often hinders me. The realization of being in others shadows paralyzes me. I spend hours in my mind wandering around the circle of insignificance. My heart tries to stay filled up with God’s Truth, but I find a leaky corner…a place where the hole of “unworthy” gets larger each day.
Today, I am a woman desperate for God to breathe fresh vision on my soul.
I don’t want the vision someone else has on their life.
I am weary of the shadows that I continually find myself in. Time is short, and I don’t have time to waste in these endless circles.
So, as I find myself in the place of needing a fresh vision for life today, I’m comforted by these thoughts…
1. The secret place is the vision space.
There is a place that I know Jesus wants to meet us everyday that isn’t about a tweet, facebook status, or blog post. My vision gets lost when it is found anywhere else but in the presence of God.
We live in a society that is constantly connected. The more connected I get, the more I find myself feeling disconnected from God.
The secret place is somewhere I need to be present and focused.
Wherever that place is, distractions must leave.
2. The vision space is the planning place.
Proverbs 29:18 says; “Where there is no vision, the people cast off restraint; but happy is he who keeps the law.”
While I’ve heard of people having dreams while sleeping of the vision God has for their life…this isn’t how God speaks to me most of the time.
The place where I sit still, ask God, read His word, listen to the nudging on my soul…this is where I hear from God.
Our hearts want so badly to believe that God has great plans for us. If we continually fight or disregard the plans, then we will continually fail to walk towards the vision.
While it may be true to this world that Nicki Koziarz is a second pick player, I have to know and believe that God does not see me this way.
I know that in a crowd of 10,000, He sees this woman, desperate for His vision.
He sees us. He knows our hearts. He knows the gifts He’s given us. He believes in us like no one else.
And He chooses you…
God, I need a fresh vision from you today. I need you to breathe on my life like never before. The only thing I ask that you make greater in my life, is your presence. Give those of us desperate for a fresh vision an undeniable encounter with you today…
Don’t you love how when you are looking and have your spiritual eyes open, God provides just what you need? I know it’s not always that easy, but this week, I was extremely blessed by words when I needed them. Since words are my love language (they can build me way up or tear me way down), these 2 passages, one provided by God and one provided by a friend, were exactly what I needed. Just for me.
Love You Ladies. I pray the words today were meant…Just For You.
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